i think of others before you too often
like the one who said that what he felt for me
was too important to say ‘i love you’
back then i just wanted to be nice to someone
but now i want so much more than that
so you will meet my unreasonable expectations
and in exchange, i will adjust my sleeping position
to accommodate the space you fill
when you leave i won’t express anger
i will only extend my arms outward
expecting something comfortable and mine
until then we can spend our days
in a familiar nowhere filled with bodies
staring at our computer screens
drinking our lukewarm coffee
none of it was your fault
you learned that i don’t really want to be happy
my sadness is as unavoidable as having four limbs
i will do anything to stop you from loving me
as long as you promise to continue wanting me
long after i’m gone