I leaned on the counter
like regular people do
at Dunkin Donuts
when a little boy asked
“What TV show are you on?”
“Sorry, I’m not on TV.”
“You look like you’re on TV.”
Mistaken not for a celebrity
but celebrity
in the general sense
Something in my look
communicating distance, the unreal,
a pose cultivated from mainlining
American Masters
documentaries on PBS, Hollywood bio-pics, eye-fucking
glossies in the checkout line
watching Carson Daly interview
Jennifer Love Hewitt or the guy from Korn
behind floor to ceiling windows
“I was able to be
my true self
on this record”
behind glass
in the street
the little boy
writes LOVE
in bubble letters
hopefully legible
through Times Square rain
The divide collapsing
between studio & street
boy & Love
American Masters & us
Bio-pic & whatever the fuck
this is “You look like
you’re on TV”
behind the counter
against a Donut background
I once hated
Iggy Azalea for being a ‘bad’ rapper
cultural appropriating
unreal
yet the first line of “Fancy,”
First things first, I’m the realest
could be the understood disclaimer of all artistic output:
rappers, artists, rockers, poets
appropriating
the authentic experience
In bubble letters
Against the odds
Started from the bottom
Every I knows what real is
Every I’s been through it
I dreamt Kurt Cobain
was real, Jerry Seinfeld, Woody Allen, then Thom Yorke, Jeff Tweedy,
Jack Kerouac, Andy Kaufman, Philip Roth, Philip Levine,
Generic White Male Celebrity #
Before them, professional athletes were real
Before that, animated rabbits & mice were real
The Disney Afternoon was real
I could relate
“You look like you’re”
also want to find myself
Fall in love
Achieve infinite likes
posting Authentic
through the Times Square rain
filter on my phone
I called Natalie and told her
“I miss New York”
& she said:
“Oh come on! You’re not some East Village rocker, ______.
If you were there,
you’d just be reading books and going to dance shows”
like regular people do
I was listening to NPR
on Verdi’s birthday
He would have been 200
& a regular person was all like
Verdi this Verdi that:
“People can relate, & say ‘Wow! I’m not the only person
who fell in love
with the wrong person,’ or ‘Oh gosh,
I’m not the only person
who made the wrong choice.’ Verdi makes people
realize it’s okay to be human”
The first line of La Traviata
is First things first, I’m the realest
If all the humans
are outside
the floor to ceiling window
who’s inside
reading my cool sign?
How do I find myself
interesting
without an audience?
American Master
if you were here
true bio-pic
glossy self
It’s okay
You’re not the only one
I leaned on the counter
“Cool sign”
“Your donut, sir”
The singer is here
The little boy is here
Hearts will go on
First things first