hey, a fair analysis of complete blood
counts, becomes
one, individual of such analyses
of we are all moving
ticks green across a black screen
into and out of our living,
parameters defined some
-times by nothing at all but
a flash before weather
leaves a negative map
for wild surroundings
not so nihilist in the woods, then
stillness becomes more than
one becomes mutagenic, my
my epiphanies, heart-leaf
down the mantle over-and-again, fire
out and brick draft, heatless
and glib, to forest
plot outcomes of mood
on mortality, mood on matter, inky
splatter, mood as intra
-cellular activation back
/forth mainlines, virologic
when the option’s harm
reduction reaction only, only
less, less harm sustained to
cells alone, all
when body’s to blame
hey, cartographer, not so
carefully snuffed out, pull
back from danger like
pulling back gauze
to examine an opening,
bones bereft,
like drawing thin sheets
across bare legs, bare ready
avoiding new, all harm
becomes a tell,
susceptibility to infection,
access, osedax, or vision
toward new vista, stoplight
swinging while the populace swarms,
gesture toward gracious
before opening, index-to-thumb,
and acknowledging harm as that which
edges overspill, avoids, reduces
time dwelt in undergrowth
encroaching on the yard
and so see a sky dark dropping
instead, instead now
now, there and there, a forest
mulching itself into and out
of existence simultaneously
and so goes mindful death-mood avoidance
so skillfully perpetual as
seemingly sugar
dissolves in cold tea, as a whale
dissolving in the sea
I imagine my skull and how much more,
how reedy my mood becomes, momentarily so
removed from mortality, my
my mood undarkens, how
to avoid becoming my skull
reduce access to death by
opening, drawing
the fabric back, then drawing
back myself, pulling myself
back and opened, ob-
servant. Just we all are key,
us becomes, comes back,
and withdrawals.